In an effort to work on things and stuff I am going to make a schedule for posting and make reminders.
It’s been a busy summer. We’ve been dealing with on going health stuff for my husband and working on my mental health. We’ve also been doing stuff to prep the kids for kindergarten. Low key prepping myself more cuz I hate change and I hate big life changes more than regular changes : its the worst feeling for me and this year I learned that it is entirely how my brain works because I am autistic and I just really really really like things to be the same. I love sameness. Sameness is safe and secure and comfy and if things are the same then I feel comfortable to do occasional new things lol.
I’m kind of freaking out cuz I will not be full time in charge of my kids, I have to trust the teachers at school and the other kids to be kind and caring to my kids and to teach them the stuff they need to learn >.< also I will be basically alone all day 5 days a week to do whatever I want for 5+ hours a day… That’s the sort of free time I have not had in basically 6 years. I don’t even know what I can do in that time. I kinda feel like maybe I will do a lot of napping at first lol.
I have been doing some more crafts and reading more books in an effort to un-stress myself.
Been watching a lot of streamers and finding some nice communities to chill on and folks to chat with about arts and crafts and video games. Been making random little amugurumi freehand and just making little things to practice stitches and even increase/decrease stitches and make round things or ovals etc. Trying to be more consistent in my crochet skills.
I need to figure out a thing and start doing little streams myself. I could do any or all of; art, video games, book club. I’d have to probably get a diff camera set up or a second camera to do art streams, book club would need to be investigated cuz I think me reading a book out loud is fair use? especially non monetized for fun… and Gaming would require me to have an avatar (PNGTuber) so that I could protect my families privacy – currently share an office wiht my husband and my kids come and go – so its hard to do a stream like that till my kids are in school on the regular and my husband is at work again and I truly have like daytime to myself lol.
All that would have to come after I get things like school routines firmly sorted out and all that fun stuff.
Just more to think about and stress. Step one for me is to set up my alarms and try to post once a week (or more). I need to accept that its okay to not have a specific thing to blog about in order to have a blog. Heck it is almost more normal that way.
